〇〡 burdened battles

Where I found this light, I was always accompanied by a shadow…hand in hand with the two actually, a symbiotic type of relationship. As much as I celebrated this fresh passion of energy, it was followed by a weighted sorrow that I could not escape from…it was even comforting…to bathe in my shadows, binging in despair and taking it as I deserved. This is all you’re good for, if you don’t do better you’ll be worth nothing, an empty failure, an unloving and awful daughter, sister, and friend…but then…the next day…I would snap out of it, almost as if I was possessed…I didn’t understand it enough to know what was happening, but what I did know was how amicable these inner feuds felt…and I welcomed them.